politic advise

Advise on politic.

1. There was no body fault.

2. Everbody has done their part and do the responsibility impeccably.

3. Everyone or party want to give the best for the citizens and they did it.

4. The party also must remember the other party also want to give the best. 

5. When you can perform the best dont think other cannot do their job well.

6. Worse part is when you make other look bad to show that you are good.

7. The party dont have to do that if the aware their own capability.

Thots on writings

Writers usually have mind that winding and consistent . The mind constantly reflects any issue they overcome and looking the future through their imagination. Everything he sees easily translated in to words and carve it own meaning a d understanding. 

Being proactive mind is utmost essentials to look something different angle. Not by just letting see as its but to know the untold description about something

As a writer he will write down anything or everything even it is mundane. He will captures the nuance of life , that usually came occasionally but doesn stop  him to write persistently. Sometimes writers have to push and gymnast his mind to come  for meaningful jems to share with his reader. I always fail in confronting with long and consistent lack of ideas.  Most of my ideas goes half way halt and do not footing to proceed on. I guess i still lacking to organise my mind structurely  and give the right flow of ideas. It is how everything goes to long halt.

I like the term ‘just jump into the mud’ . Get yourself untidy  and find the right smells of the mud. Just write first and think latter how it will look like. Get the gist of the point you try to convey or built the structure then latter fill them with trunk , leaves , flower and fruits.

Menulis lagi

 

Pada waktu ini aku merasakan amat sukar dalam dada. Amat payah untuk kekal konsisten dan memumpukan pada ci cita dalam diri . Memang benar di katakan bayangan gelap masa lampau akan sentiasa menghantui  dan mengikat diri mu mu untuk berubah dan menjadi lebih baik. Aku sedar bahawa minat atau keinginan sahaja belum tentu mampu untuk memacu jalan untuk mencapai cita cita. Tapi yang lebih diperlukan adalah kekuatan untuk kita menghadapi saat kehilangan punca dan idea, saat  hati merasakan kosong dan tidak terarah. Stamina yang diperlukan adalah untuk menyonsong arus, dan kental diri untuk untuk kosisten dan trus berdisiplin . Di sini aku merasakan menjadi seorang yang gagal.

 

Mungkim juga penulis tidak wajar berada di keadaan yang santai dan complacent. Kesuntukan masa, tekanan sekeliling mumgkim lebih menganjak diri untuk terus berkarya. Ini kerana pada hari ini aku rasa mempunyai waktu senggang yang banyak, namun aku leka dengan hal yang tidak penting dan banyak hilang fokus. Banyak hasrat yang terkandung hanya menjadi boneka boneka yang tidak bernhawa.

 

Akal harus berstruktur dalam merencanakan idea untuk menulis. Mungkinkah aku ketandusan idea? Atau pun hilang keyakinan bahawasa penulisan aku mencapai tahap yang membanggakan? Ya pasti aku rasakan kesilapan aku adalah disebabkan oleh terlalu  meletakkan expectation yang tertinggi. Dan aku tidak yakin bahawa penulisan aku mencapai taraf atau nilai sastera yang tinggi. Aku tidak mengerti akan makna perasaan ini namun ia telah secara sadisnya mencacatkan hasrat yang aku pendam selama ini.

 

Saya suke dengan kata kata, just write and write and write. Have it pour and done. Namun aku harus juga berfikir secara rambang tentang apa poin poin penting yang cuba aku tuliskan. Apa detail detai penting yang ingin di salutkan untuk mendalami poin poin tersebut.  Apakah analisa dan sudut pandang  yang cuba aku kemukan, dan apakah harapan untuk tindakan masa hadapan. Itu semua harus aku fikirkan sebagai permulaan umtuk merangkak untuk menjadi penulis yang baik. Harus lebih banyak membaca dan mengariskan idea bernas yang boleh diolah oleh pemahaman diri sendiri. Inshallah aku akan cube menulis lagi.

23 jul 2020

#politik

Krajaan sekarang  ckp mampu 

bawa malaysia ke arah lebih maju. Krajaan terdahulu menegakkan bahawa formula manifesto mereka adalah lebih mapan dan telah byk memberi kemanfaatan kpd masyarakat. Pendapat saya, kedua -duanya telah memberi yg terbaik kpd negara. Kedua duanya telah menyumbang kpada kemajuan dan kestabilan sekrg. Kedua dua telah berjuang ikhlas untuk membawa negara lebih berdaya saing. Tak perlu lagi pertikai itu dan ini.

meracau di hospital

Ooh, my condition was bad, depress, x bole tdo few days, ubat yg being masuk tru vein quite strong , make short of breath...one of the nite i zikir intensely and talking to myself to be strong...

Then after few minute i fall asleep n bile bgn i start meracau..

I bgn from katil and runing keluar wad, n terserempak a lady doc. I ckp dekat ' sya dh jumpe, sya dh jumpe akhirnya,sya dh fham knape kite sakit dekat hospital ni'

I duduk kt lantai sambil sebut ya allah byk kali..then a nurse dtg nk tlg i, i tnye dia , "awk name ape, awk mesti perempuan hebat, sya dh jumpe rahsia kehidupan, sya utusan tuhan nk selamatkan manusia"

Then i run to wad counter,told to all nurses and doctor, " awk semua jgn lupe tuhan, jgn lupe sembhyang walau sibuk dgn kje n dunia" semua staf tgk i dgn takut. Then i hug a male nurse , tell him allah maha besar...then u hold dua lengan staff nurse india telling" u r nice person"..then walk back to my bed..i dunno wat happen, and then nurse tell me the whole story what had happen..

Tis is real thing happen😋at the ward...then doc bgi ubat penanang n wife rushing to hospital around 5 pgi.

journal posting

think to start a new journal posting, to boast my daily writting. At least i can preserved new incoming ideas  for fure writing. I read posting in Quara, Ruskin Bond said as writer we need to write 10,000 words a day. That is very impossible for starter like me. They suggest you to decide which medium suits you most, for or non fiction. Fiction require more imagination and character build up and what strory that illuminates from him or here. Try to describe the characters, anything that you think interesting to share with reader. If you are non fiction fans, the process may differ. You need to be informative with facts and figures, and article normally have its own structures. What issues that interests you, how you look the matter at your perspectives and analysis.

I still cant decide, i m very moody writer , sometimes i indulge into fiction and next day i jump in to become journalist. Thats ok, as long i keep on writing about what in mind and heart. For beginner , they suggest 2500 words a day could be reasonnable.  So i decide to keep my daily journal of idea. Everthing that disturbed or ignite me will be scribbled into this journal. Just to speak my mind and getting clear what I had in mind. Hope i will kick start and has consistent journal.

Another words of motivation from the movie 'finding forrester' , you just need to write , not to think. Just write what passing through the heart. Write with your heart,  rewrite with your mind.

18 jul 20

[18/07, 23:08] Shazad: Had a sad story, i got uncle in KL, my mother in law broth, dh diagnosed esrf like me, quite sometimes. He refuse to do dialysis, doc just told that he got few month to live..

[18/07, 23:11] Shazad: Mmg dia xnak langsung, dia kata sanggup mati je dari dialisis, dia kata dia xmampu nk buat n byr kos dialisisis,, next week  mom in law nk g lawat dia, keadaan not so gud anymore, dia ajak i pegi skali to advise him

[18/07, 23:16] Shazad: My uncle ni .mmg susah ckit, keras hati, for me not bcoz duit pun, bcoz mcm2 cara bole iktiar, cume dia xsanggup nk dialisia. I know the feeling. Dialyis mmg option. Some  ncome better, some get worsen .but that is only our ikhtiar

[18/07, 23:20] Shazad: Mmg doc akan syorkan kite buat dialysis but the decision up to patient. Doc xboleh paksa. They just warn that they no longer responsible if anything happen.